to love for the hope of it all

for all intents and purposes, i have specific requests to the universe for my future husband as i deserve to have somebody to share my life with:

+requirements: kind, intelligent, ambitious, carries out what he says he will, respectful, funny, likes talking to me, decisive, cares about me, family values, sweet, appreciates the things i do for him, good with pets and babies, good at communication (keeping me updated on things because he knows i prefer to be), attentive, has hobbies, is interesting, can stand up for me when needed, has some sort of life plan / clear idea of what he wants his life to look like, finds me interesting, finds me attractive

+requests: will play tennis and badminton, good with plants, likes reading, interested in tech (somewhat), on the tidy-side, same taste in decor (cottage-ish), not picky with food, similar music taste, good friends, has a strong sense of self, knows how to manage money, is handy / knows how to do a large range of things, good fashion sense

+physically: brunette, nice kind eyes, nice teeth + smile, taller than me (however much)

+things he would do include: cooking with me, sharing books and ideas, watching movies and shows together, will try new hobbies / classes with me, enjoys traveling with me, makes sushi at home with me

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i’m sure there’s slightly more on the list, and i’ll add to it if i see fit; but i realised that i don’t have anything relating to money (meaning having any / financial spoiling). i also notice that there is a LOT on this list that a.b.s. fits, and frankly he’s always fit quite a lot of what i’ve always wanted in a partner. i think that’s the main reason it’s gone on this long between us. writing this also makes me realise the things that could be missing – things that if i’m being honest, i don’t think would be much of a change, but that he’d be willing to ‘improve’.

similarly, i have to continue improving and changing the things i want to about myself so that when our paths cross, i can be who i’d like to be. i will be making my own list in the next few days and concretely take steps in the right direction.